Picking Up the Pieces
When I think about the reality of my life and how I am “doing”, it’s usually based on how my girls or Bryan are doing. It’s not so much that I am affected by things happening in my own life but by the things affecting those around me that I love. I pick up their problems. They don’t ask me to, but I love them. I want to fix it ALL, by whatever means. This last year has been a really hard one for both of my girls. I have watched them go through so many struggles and heartaches. Of course, there have been amazing things happening too. I have seen so much strength and growth in both of them. But what is my reaction when they are struggling? Do I give it to God or take control of the situation and try to begin picking up the broken pieces. If you ask my girls, they would probably say both, but I probably lean more towards taking things into my own hands. :) Sorry girls!
I was in Galatians Chapter 3 today during my quiet time. I was reading in verse 3 into verse 4. Paul is speaking to the Galatians and begins by saying, “Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh? Did you suffer so many things in vain - if indeed it was in vain?” Wow!! So many times I take the things that are on my heart to God but somehow I also think He needs my help. As if I know more than my Creator. I am handling situations based on how I feel at the time, or what I think is best. Yet, God sees the beginning to the end and knows all. I begin in the Spirit but end up letting my flesh take over. And can I tell you that Yes, so many times it is done in vain! To be done in vain means to not succeed in achieving what you attend. Even if I do achieve what “I” attend, it’s not an achievement at all if it was not God’s will. How many times do I drive myself completely insane trying to pick up the pieces that are not mine to pick up.
I will always be a part of my girls' lives. And I will always stand in the gap for them and be a shoulder to cry on. But I have to begin in the Spirit and stay in the Spirit when it comes to their lives and situations that arise. Now I will be completely honest and say that I am not good at this. It doesn’t come natural. And as I am writing this I know that I will be held accountable for my words by them now LOL! But there is a peace that comes when we trust in our God. A peace that I need so much in my life. A peace that surpasses MY understanding, my human understanding.
How about you? Are their situations in your life right now that you are struggling with? Have you begun in the Spirit and are now trying to make them perfect in your own flesh? Are you overcome with anxiety and don’t know how to let go? I am right there with you. I am learning day by day how much my Father loves me and how trustworthy He is. You have to run to Him in your times of heartache and when trouble comes. He gives you peace, He lifts that burden, and He picks up the broken pieces.